Monday, May 11, 2015

Mother's Day Thoughts

Sunday morning I woke up on the wrong side of the bed so to speak.  I was bound and determined to be depressed all day.  I was even contemplating not going to church.  I didn't want to hear anything about Mother's Day and I didn't want to get a stupid plant or anything. 

Basically I don't consider myself a mother.  At least not in the regular sense of the word.  On June 12, 1987 I became the stepmother to 3 children that I really didn't know.  Tom had custody of his son and the two girls lived with their mother in Florida. I didn't even meet them until after we were married.

Then on Feb. 12, 1987 I became a mother.  I gave birth to Daniel.  But as time progressed that didn't take on the normal mother aspect either.  Daniel had Fragile X syndrome and was not going to be a "normal" person.  He was going to school at about 2 and he moved into a group home at 5.5.

I was sad about all of this and the fact that Daniel wouldn't be calling and that my step children probably wouldn't call either.  (I was really hoping they would)Then  Tom got a text from his daughter Rachael and she said to tell me Happy Mother's Day.  His other daughter, Mary, wrote a Mother's Day post on our family Facebook page, and later that night Tony sent me a text saying Happy Mother's Day.

This all totally changed my attitude and made my day.  I even felt guilty for feeling so bad. God really works in mysterious ways and is aware of us.  Even me.

PS.  Over the years my relationship with my step children has gotten better.  I think as each of us has grown and matured we have come to realize that we are important in each others lives.  I even feel more like they are my children.  I wish that I had given birth to them.

Wednesday, May 6, 2015

I Survived The A To Z Challenge

I survived the challenge.  This turned out to be a really good experience for me.  It has restored my faith in blogging.  I am glad there are so many people out there doing this.  I was also able to meet a few new people and become reconnected with other bloggers.  I did do several posts ahead of time and that worked out really well.

I didn't get to as many blogs as I would have liked to.  Seeing that big list was so overwhelming.  However, I did visit everyone who came to me.

This ended up being a great eye opening experience for me.  For my theme I did character qualities that are good to have.  I came to the realization that I am not as willing as I should be. (that was my w word).  I really need to be more willing to do what it takes to achieve something.

While doing this challenge, I reached my 400th post.  I can't believe I have done that much.

Thanks to all of those who came by and commented.  This was a fun experience and I look forward to doing it next year.

Thursday, April 30, 2015

A To Z Blogging Challenge Zest

 Do you have a keen enjoyment for something?  If you do then you have zest.  I think more people,  including me, should have more of a zest for life or what ever it is that we are doing.  A wise man once said that life is meant to be enjoyed not endured. (Gordon B. Hinckley)  I think we need to remember that and do things with zest.

Well, this is the end of the A to Z blogging challenge.  I have really enjoyed it and hope all of you have too.  It was a good exercise and really helped me to stretch as a wanna be blogging. 

Wednesday, April 29, 2015

A to Z Blogging Challenge You

 You just isn't a pronoun to refer to someone or people in general.  You is a wonderful person with many talents and abilities.  You is a person that is like no other.  You is a person created to be one of a kind.  You is you and you are amazing, wonderful and fabulous.

Tuesday, April 28, 2015

A To Z Blogging Challenge fragile X

Fragile what?  I know this isn't a good character quality to have but this has been very instrumental in building my character.  When I was 29 I gave birth to my first child, a son, we named Daniel. 
After a few weeks it was apparent that something wasn't quite right.  Many months and doctor visits later, we were told that Daniel had Fragile X syndrome.  Upon further testing it was determined that I was a carrier.  However, later testing showed me that I have the full mutation of the gene so in a sense I have it too.  There are ways that I am effected by it.  So, to make a long story short, dealing with my son and dealing with my issues, has really turned me into a better person and has truly made me stronger.  As much as I would like all of this Fragile X stuff to go away, I wouldn't want to give it back for all the things I have learned from it.  I guess God gave me Fragile X as a vehicle to make me more like him.  I hope I have meet the challenge.