Here we go again. Can't believe two posts in one day. I am feeling those feelings again. Empty, sad, tired, energetic. I feel like I could sleep forever and at the same time feeling like I could run a marathon. Crazy I know.
I also feel like I need to pray and really turn this over to the Lord. But....I don't know what to say, I am tired ,I feel like my problems are so little compared to other people I know. I just can't seem to get passed that one. I feel like I am sinning if I ask for help because other people are worse off. I should be happier, more grateful. See I don't need enemies, I got myself.
But on the other hand it is happening to ME. Don't I deserve charity too? Is that stupid man putting these thoughts into my head? Maybe so. Because if I pray etc, I will find out my worth and that would tick him off. I think I would like to do that. I love making him mad. He really is the enemy after all.