Sunday, March 14, 2010

Here we go again. Can't believe two posts in one day. I am feeling those feelings again. Empty, sad, tired, energetic. I feel like I could sleep forever and at the same time feeling like I could run a marathon. Crazy I know.
I also feel like I need to pray and really turn this over to the Lord. But....I don't know what to say, I am tired ,I feel like my problems are so little compared to other people I know. I just can't seem to get passed that one. I feel like I am sinning if I ask for help because other people are worse off. I should be happier, more grateful. See I don't need enemies, I got myself.
But on the other hand it is happening to ME. Don't I deserve charity too? Is that stupid man putting these thoughts into my head? Maybe so. Because if I pray etc, I will find out my worth and that would tick him off. I think I would like to do that. I love making him mad. He really is the enemy after all.

2 comments:

nelia m. said...

hi karen,
just to let you know, you probably already know this...but my teaccher in astronomy class said, that we must be selfish sometimes to be able to help ourselves and others, i think what he's saying is that it is ok, infact good to think of yourself before others...you know like, the saying can't take care of others if we can't take or willn not take care of ourselves? anyway, hope i'm making some sense. BYW, I love your blog page. one of these days, I will also take the time to do it. Will you be able to save these and print them? hope so...love ya.

Jill said...

I just found this blog and I love it. Very pretty. I wouldn't change a thing, really. And you have some good quotes along the side. I had a friend check your blog out the other day and she is the one who told me about it! She wanted to leave a comment but said you wouldn't know who she was.