Several weeks ago I did a blog post entitled "Wanted: Kindred Spirit". Well, thanks to a trip to Idaho, a Sunday School class, and a bible story, I found one. Just too bad she lived 1000's of years ago and in a different country. But, none-the-less, she was here and thank God someone recorded her story.
Her story is recorded in 1st Samuel. Hannah wanted a child very badly and was unable to conceive. So, she prayed and in her prayer she told God that if she had a child, she would turn him over to the Lord. Well, Hannah conceived and bore a son named Samuel. She kept him for about 3 years and gave him over to Eli the prophet.
I admire and respect her so much for what she did. In a sense, I had to do the same thing. My son was not born "normal". I had to give up my dreams I had for him and also my dream of becoming a mother again. I had to basically just turn this whole situation over to God.
Anyway, as the years progressed, it became clear that I could no longer care for my son. He was only 5 years old when I had to give him over to someone else to take care of. (as sad and hard as this was, it was the best thing and the people who care for him are beyond fabulous)
Luckily, our stories don't end here. It says that Hannah went on and had other children. I never knew the rest of the story. Her story gives me great hope for the future. I feel that my story isn't over yet. Hannah has given me hope that some day, some other place that my story will end like hers did.
I just wish that somehow we could break our limitations of this world and be able to talk to each other. I would like to ask her questions about how she felt; what was going through her mind. I would also like to thank her for her example of strength and courage she has shown to me.
If this could happen, I just bet, that despite our age differences, we could be kindred spirits.