Saturday, May 12, 2012
Mother's Day Thoughts
Over the years I have had mixed emotions on the subject of Mother's Day. As a child I don't think I really thought much of it. It wasn't until I got to be a young adult that I began to have any feelings one way or the other. I didn't like it. I was sad because I wasn't married and wasn't a mother. Then when I got married, I became an instant mother but wasn't emotionally ready for it. Just lets say it wasn't easy. Then when I became a mother to Daniel, it wasn't a normal experience. He had special needs and I was sending him off to a special school at about 1.5 or 2. Usually you send them to school at 5. Then when he turned 5 we made the decision to place him in a group home. (it is wonderful)
So for several years, I was on a pity trip because of everything and because I couldn't be a mother again. I have a genetic thing that I could pass on. So pretty risky.
One day my mother had a talk with me and told me that Mother's Day isn't about me and weather I was a mother or not. It was a day to remember and honor your mother and how wonderful she is. That has made all the difference in the world.
As I was pondering Mother's Day, its meaning and my mother, many thoughts came to my mind. I have been really blessed to have her as my mother. She broke the cycle of abuse and allowed my brothers and I to have a good and peaceful life. There was never really any drama in our home. I am glad of that because I am not sure I could have dealt with it very well.
She always loved me for me and always excepted me as I was. She has always given good advise and many great views of the things of life. She has always had a positive attitude towards life despite the hardships she has faced.
I am thankful to God for allowing me to be born to my mother, Nellie.