My Son Daniel- He was here this weekend and we had a wonderful visit. But it is always a mixed bag when he leaves. I feel happy, sad, guilty, you name it I feel it. For those of you who don't know, Daniel is disabled and has lived in a group home since he was 5. He is now 25.
My Grandmother's House- Nannie passed away in 1999 but my uncle has been living in the house up until about 6 months ago when he had to go to a nursing home. The house has fallen into disrepair and we are "forced" to sell it. We have a buyer and it is the perfect situation. This week I am meeting my mom at the house to go through stuff. It is just going to be hard to close this chapter.
Home Alone- It seems that I am left home alone quit a bit. I really do enjoy my time alone and I thrive on peace and quite. But at the same time I feel "abandon" and like nobody wants me, or I am wasting time.
Does anyone else have these feelings or is it just me? What do you do? Any suggestions?
4 comments:
I'm sorry about the rough time your having. I haven't been in your shoes regarding your emotions with your son but I have a hard time with our daughter and I find myself crying all the time. Also having to sell a house that holds memories for you has to be very emotional. Sending prayers your way and keeping you in my thoughts....((HUGS))
So I hope you take pictures of the house. Was that the one your Mom grew up in??
It seems to me like life is always a mixed bag, and having one emotion doesn't preclude having another. So yes, I feel lots of feelings…all the time.
Mostly, I like it. But sometimes…not so much.
Hugs.
=)
I think we all go through ups and downs. When I feel the need to sort out emotions I write things down. Sometimes getting the feelings in writing helps to identify what's really upsetting or making me unhappy. Hope things are going better for you! Mimi
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