Sunday, April 6, 2014

Mixed Emotions

I have so many feelings and emotions running around in me that I don't know how to feel.  Let me explain.  There are several things happening that I am not sure how to feel about them.

My Son Daniel- He was here this weekend and we had a wonderful visit.  But it is always a mixed bag when he leaves.  I feel happy, sad, guilty, you name it I feel it.  For those of you who don't know, Daniel is disabled and has lived in a group home since he was 5.  He is now 25.

My Grandmother's House- Nannie passed away in 1999 but my uncle has been living in the house up until about 6 months ago when he had to go to a nursing home.  The house has fallen into disrepair and we are "forced" to sell it.  We have a buyer and it is the perfect situation.  This week I am meeting my mom at the house to go through stuff.  It is just going to be hard to close this chapter.

Home Alone- It seems that I am left home alone quit a bit.  I really do enjoy my time alone and I thrive on peace and quite.  But at the same time I feel "abandon" and like nobody wants me, or I am wasting time.

Does anyone else have these feelings or is it just me?  What do you do?   Any suggestions?


Debby@Just Breathe said...

I'm sorry about the rough time your having. I haven't been in your shoes regarding your emotions with your son but I have a hard time with our daughter and I find myself crying all the time. Also having to sell a house that holds memories for you has to be very emotional. Sending prayers your way and keeping you in my thoughts....((HUGS))

Grandma Honey said...

So I hope you take pictures of the house. Was that the one your Mom grew up in??

Susan Anderson said...

It seems to me like life is always a mixed bag, and having one emotion doesn't preclude having another. So yes, I feel lots of feelings…all the time.

Mostly, I like it. But sometimes…not so much.


Mimi Sue said...

I think we all go through ups and downs. When I feel the need to sort out emotions I write things down. Sometimes getting the feelings in writing helps to identify what's really upsetting or making me unhappy. Hope things are going better for you! Mimi