Wednesday, January 27, 2016
My Little Brother Is Wearing An Orange Jumpsuit
I have many emotions running through me as I sit here and type this blog post. I don't know exactly what to say, I just know I need to get this down to help me work through the pain of it all.
I found out a couple of days ago that my little brother is in jail for stabbing his wife and breaking some of her ribs. I don't know any more details than that. I just talked to my sister-in-laws mother. My SIL is okay. She was in the hospital for a couple of days.
I don't know what to feel at this time. My little brother was so sweet and kind back in the day but drugs and alcohol really can take a toll on people and change them. Also, my brother has really pulled himself away from the family over the years. I just hate drugs. I wish they weren't here.
Because of all this history it brings about all my conflicting feelings. I really care and then I find myself not caring at all because he brought this on himself. I want to punch him and shake him but then I want to hug him because I remember how sweet and wonderful he was to me. There are 6 years between us but were we always closer that me and my older brother.
I just have to let it go and let God handle it. I can't take this on. All I can do is pray.